It’s been a long time. And because of this, I seem to have a problem using my own keyboard. I’ve been using a desktop with a Brazilian keyboard for a few weeks now, and keep reaching for the right keys in the wrong places. It has been a good journey thus far. Minus the fact that I right now live in a home WITHOUT internet, and have otherwise no form of communication with people here or in New York…I am okay for now. I am no longer in a long distance relationship….which worked as a relief of me down here. People do not understand the difficulties it brings to an exchange until they live it. I have to live in the moment, here, and not try to wonder what life is like 5000 miles away. To be completely honest, I could care less what most of you are doing in New York. I do not live there. I barely know any of you now. We live separate lives with different experiences. I have no intention of bothering to find out what you do every weekend and who your best friends are now. It sounds harsh, but my connections to Clifton Park are now extremely limited to about four people. One is my mother. Hahahahahahahaha,
To anyone who has written to me in my time here so far. THANK YOU. I love letters and whatever you wish to send. I know it can be a pain to send and expensive but it is so great to get things from home. As much as I do not miss it….some things are missing here….ya know? I realize now that my English is worse than I could ever have imagined. Usually here, I either do not talk at all, or I attempt to speak Portuguese….I am SUPER shy about talking though. I have one friend I speak Portuguese to, because he does not give a damn if I mess up hahah, he usually understands! Mort than my English, at least…
My family speaks no English now, like I have said. It has helped a tremendous amount being in a family that actually wants to talk to me, and in Portuguese too…but yeah. I get super frustrated sometimes. Less than when I began here, but the other day I could not figure something out and had a tiny fit….teeny tiny, but I figured it out. It can be so frustrating sometimes, not knowing how to speak….but it just makes you want to try harder.
I’ve been going to the gym lately. Because diets are for quitters. And the chances of me limiting my food intake are slim to none. I love it, I just wish I was notin as poor of shape as I am. I do not know how I got so out of shape! I’m not even 18 yet! I used to run a lot and fitness was always important to me, since I never want to see fat steriod amy ever again…but I got SOOO lazy. Since I stopped being vegan, I think. But maintaining muscle mass is SO much easier when I am not vegan. Though I get sluggish and don’t have energy to do anything. Now thay Ive been going out more…laziness is decreasing.
SPEAKING OF WHICH. I RODE A HORSE. Two….actually. Not at the same time….two different horses….two different days….yeah. When I was younger I was in love with horses! Not the typical little girl horse thing, but I wanted to ride so badly. My father had a horse when he was young. A lot of my relatives did, or they rode. I always wanted a farm. But not to kill animals…to love them J I loved riding though. I remember being on horseback like one or two times in my life, a loooooong time ago. But it is a real fear I have, speaking to animals here. I wonder what they think when someone speaks to them ina foreign language….I didn’t want to freak out the horses…or dogs or other animals. Same thing with babies. This one I lawyas see…she jus stares at my eyes, because blue eyes don’t happen that often….and when I speak….she looks….confused.
This family I have now keeps me a lotttt more busy than my other had. But right now, they are leaving for a cruise…and I am in a temporary family. Without internet…yeah seriously. They are nice thoguh. My birthday is in like a week. 18. Where the heck did that come from? I feel old. And unaccomplished. Though I am neither old, nor unaccomplished. I just have impossible standards and am curious as to how my last 5 years od life flew by (since I was 13 time flew, I guess).
It is a beauuuutiful day out today! Sunny and warm, not too hot...but for some reason I feel like staying in for now. I took a looong shower today...and laughed because I always wonder how it is I take better showers in a third world country than in New York...who knows. I miss Bailey and Grace and Bridget right now. I always want to update them, but then by the time I get to talk to them, I forget half my story. Grrr. I can't wait to see them again! Everyone else..eh, you're alright.
I am getting so, SO bored with facebook. I wonder how much longer I'll keep it. I remember when Myspace (oldie, I know, right?) was ALL the rage then it just kind of died...(if any of you still have a Myspace, I apologize...but it's time came a long time ago...) I liked before that less people had facebook. Now, everyone and their mom (literally) has one, and it's far too easy to stalk someones every move. I keep it now to keep people who wonder about it here updated, also to keep in touch with some people here, as I have no phone...hmph.
I hope to be getting out some more....please brasil dont let this weekend suck! ;) andddd i am going to work on uploading my iguacu pictures right now. check back for more later!
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