Today was a good day, but for some reason I ended up where I am right now, in that mood where EVERYTHING pisses you off...even the thought of someone, or the sound of someone's voice. Yes.
Also, in my bad mood, I realize how badly I don't want to go home in however long it is until my departure. I do like it here a lot, but that's not entirely why. I hate living with my parents, and having to see family, and live in close proximity to everyone who has always been. The fact that I am most likely going to college so close, it makes me sick. I don't want to, but my options are limited. I can always transfer, if I look into schools more....like I forgot to before. I hate that being around people you know brings on a sense of dependency, and I hate that. I live by myself and will be a hermit for life, I don't deny it. I am unfriendly sometimes. I am always friendly to new people and people for a period of time, but I get irritated too quickly, I am better off alone.
Yesterday, I said I wanted York Peppermint Patties. When I was younger those were my favorite candies ever. I just finished the last package of hot cocoa I had been sent here...and they were all (except one packet) mint chocolate. I hate mint.
I woke up this morning and was informed, by the maid, that I am moving Wednesday. I had no idea...and I'm pretty apprehensive about it. I feel like whenever I start to get comfortable in a place, I'm shipped off. Boo.
Today was great though. I went to another farm for a party, with the same family I went with yesterday. I rode a horse, played in a river (YES, REALLY), attempted to fish in the fish-less river, and just had a really good time. I felt really relaxed with them all, it's great. Regardless of the fact that I pretty much can not breathe, it was a successful day.
No one works tomorrow. It's the official Carnival feriado day. No work. Holiday.
I WANT MAIL.
Hm.
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